Last round, I accomplished my goal of making a drastic game-changing move. I can tell that Taylor leaving sent huge shockwaves throughout the game, and it's the race to the finish line now. The Final 7 Round is ALWAYS crazy, and I don't expect this one to be any different.
First of all, going into this past vote, it really wasn't that much of a decision to vote Taylor out. Once Sandy and Mike each pledged their loyalty to me, there really was no reason to keep Taylor/Megan in the game because I feel they are more dangerous to my chances of making the finals than any of the other remaining players. While of course, sticking with those 2 + Erin would have locked me a seat in the Final 4 IF THEY ACTUALLY DIDN'T FLOP (Taylor/Megan claim they wouldn't have... but you never really know), I am glad we made the move we did because it shook up the game and stirred the pot a little bit. Apparently Taylor is NOT an alias, but Megan admitted to being one, finally. They both definitely set off the alias-dar, but yeah. It was a little funny to hear Taylor accuse me of voting him off only because I didn't think he was real because that isn't the case at all. Erin and I have been thinking about the right opportunity to take them out, and this felt like the perfect time.
Now, here we are both still alive in the Final 7. Megan was being a complete bitch to both of us earlier. She grilled us, called us bad names, and basically tried to make us feel like we were idiots for voting Taylor out. Notice the word "tried" ... obviously to Megan, Taylor's #1 ally, this wouldn't seem like a good move because it fucked her over, but she seem to realize that we are playing a goddamn GAME. It's Survivor! Not duck duck goose, or pretty pretty princess. This is a cutthroat game full of lying and backstabbing, but ultimately, you need good strategy to win. Going to the Final 4 in an obvious 2 vs 2 situation is NOT wise gameplay. Why go to a tie when there's ways to grab an extra swing vote to take a majority? From what they claim, Taylor and Megan wouldn't have tried to get Erin and myself out, and if that's true, we simply outplayed them fair and square. It's their own fault for feeling too safe and comfortable. You can't make it to the end (and especially expect to win) without building solid relationships and constantly considering your options. I am still trying to work on strengthening my friendships with the remaining players because I know that through the betrayal, it'll still help me out if I make it to the end. It really pisses me off that Taylor and Megan are being such bitter crybabies about the entire situation. They both basically freaked the fuck out on me, but I didn't let them just dish it to me without me firing back. I was able to defend my decision because it obviously was the correct one, and they can't see that through the barrier of shock and betrayal. What pissed me off the most was when Megan accused me of having bad character and being a dishonest person, as if my way of playing the game shows who I am outside it. Fuck off. Like I said in my application to this series, I am half that typical "Ahhhh I hate voting off my friends" type player, and half the "I'll do whatever it takes to get to the end" person. This entire situation is a classic example of that.
Megan then started asking me if she was next to go, and while I hadn't really decided that before Taylor left, I sure want her gone next now! She sat there calling me a douchebag, a liar, and basically a terrible person over this, so yeah, I'm pretty sure she wants my head cut off too. No need to keep her around to risk her making up some bullshit story to turn the game around. I even told Megan to her face that there's no possible way I'd have reacted as negatively as they did. It's a game we're all here to win and compete for the title of sole survivor. You can't expect to sit in the finals without lying at some point.
What I find really really hilarious is I sort of feel like with this past move, I am coming off as the villain character of this season. It just makes me laugh because it is the total opposite of the type of person AND player I always am. I would compare myself to JT from real Survivor... he's a total nice guy, and "hero," but he's also not afraid to play the game because he realizes he is trying to win... a GAME. Was this past round dirty? Hell yeah! But the reality is, everyone is going to get voted out eventually. 7 of us can't all sit in the finals. I wish I could just scream in Taylor and Megan's faces "IT'S A FUCKING GAME" until they understood that, but I don't expect them to be fans of me when this is all over, and that's fine with me. If they can't be mature enough to see the difference between game and friendship, they aren't worth trying to keep in touch with anyways. But back to my villain rant, I don't know... I think because a lot of these other players haven't been putting forth much effort her, it makes me stand out as "the bad guy" even though I am not that bad at all. I stick to my original alliance, and that is Erin. I am deadly honest to my original deal.
As we go forward in this round, I figure Taylor will curse me for the challenge, but that's fine. I can't wait to win this immunity and show everyone that I can overcome it. My plan is to continue keeping Mike and Sandy feeling comfortable, and to get all of us to vote Megan next. I hope Erin's connection with Zander will also make him okay with voting her just in case something funky happens. I am not safe by any means! There is still a huge chance people will try to split me and Erin up, and honestly, that would be an amazing move for them! We just have to hope they don't figure it out... Haha. I feel really proud that we took a risk with this Taylor vote because I'd rather go out next knowing I had guts than play conservative and easy and sit in the final 4 in a fucking tie. Come on. How would that be fun?
Oh, and by the way, I hate Megan. If that wasn't clear yet.
Last night Erin and I were on the phone as Megan told us both we were her #2 favorite in the game right behind Taylor. Not sure how that works... Obviously she's just a sore loser bitter cunt who is making shit up to make herself feel better. Whateverrrr.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhh. I am soooo frustrated right now! I may not be in the best mood to be writing this, but at this point, I don't care.
First of all, Megan winning this challenge isn't all that surprising because hey, I expected karma to come get me at least a little bit. It is inconvenient to now have to play hard and turn the vote on someone else, but it is what it is. Right now, at this second, I can't say I feel confident I will be in this game still after tomorrow night. Sandy's vote seems to be the key to my survival, and that's assuming Mike isn't totally bullshitting me and Erin. According to Mike, Megan/Zander/Kevin joined up to create a threesome alliance, and they approached him about joining it. He told me and Erin that he lied and agreed to it, but actually is with us 100%. Because of his connection to Jessica and how solid Jessica was with me and Erin, I would be extremely surprised to see him turn on us. It just doesn't make sense to walk into a tight threesome as the fourth. So, I tried to make sure Mike realized that, instead of starting to think it's actually probably dumber for him to go to the Final 3 with me and Erin... so hopefully it works out! Sandy wasn't online tonight, so it is VITAL for me to catch her tomorrow morning. Because I was so kind to save her last round, I do hope she repays me by saving my butt, but you never know. According to Kevin, he's still never even talked to her, and I have no idea about the extent of Sandy's relationships with Zander and Megan, although it would be weird if they were close. On the other hand, I know Sandy and Erin have talked quite a bit, and I feel I've made a large effort to get to know her. I'm probably just paranoid about it since it's so important, but really, she SHOULD be loyal to me in this next vote.
Hold on, I need to go grab a banana.
Ok back. Yes, I just ate a fucking banana. But where was I... OH! Sandy. Yes, so Erin and I agreed that our best chance of making it past here alive is getting Mike and Sandy. Since Megan won the challenge, it left us with only Zander or Kevin to vote for. We decided on Zander because he seems better at challenges and smarter, so he will be receiving my vote for sure.
BUT, while Kevin was talking to me, I started getting extremely pissed off. Kevin told me that Megan was originally going around campaigning hard to take me out, and said he got her to go for Erin instead since he was looking out for me. Obviously, Kevin realizes he could be fucked, so I'm sure he was just licking my balls to make me not go after him. Funny thing is, once Mike told me about the threesome alliance, I asked Kevin about it and he played dumb. After more "I just don't want to go so I'll vote with the majority" bullshit, he then said he was "Frustrated" and "Just needed to go lay down." Ok whatever dude. I left it with him that as of that second, I'd plan on voting Zander.
The second after Kevin "left" (which he never signed off or went away...) Zander grilled me big time and starting asking me all these questions. Ok little punk, you can't just come up to me and expect me to tell you my entire strategy. How stupid would I be to say to your face that I want you out next? Finally, after it got annoying (which wasn't that long) I started firing back asking when he was being so aggressive. Kevin idiot flat out told him I was voting him, so Zander was pissed. And that's fine... I can't wait to see how mean some of the votes are against me. But, Kevin definitely messed with the wrong person because he just fucked himself over big time if the vote goes Zander this time. I told Zander I knew about his little alliance, and he freaked out wanting to know who told me. Just to fuck with him, I said Megan told me, and he started saying how Megan is full of shit and trying to turn all of us against each other. I ran with that, then saying how Megan is obviously powerless and a desperate bitter hot mess, who will say or do anything to get by as long as she can, and Zander sorta seemed to agree. Hopefully there will be some tension after that, but really, who cares. As long as Zander goes this round, I think I will be golden to at least the Final 4. It really all comes down to Mike and Sandy's decision. If they are smart, they'll vote me and Erin off next and sit in a Final 5 where it could be anyone's game. For my sake, I hope they are dumb. =)
Convincing people that Erin and I are not planning on going to the finals is sooooo incredibly difficult. Zander seems to least believe our story about being willing to vote each other off, and that's another reason I want him out first here. I'm trying as hard as I can to create animosity among some of the other players in hopes that they'll forget as much as possible that Erin and I are like best friends. If we do pull this off and sit in the finals then man, I think we deserve some mad props for our manipulation of some of these people! It's not an easy journey, but I'm up the challenge and I don't want the game to end for me yet... Cheers to hoping there's 4 votes for Zander tomorrow. Please God please.
UGH. Sandy wants Kevin out instead of Zander, so only choice is to go with her on that. She's my only hope, and totally is sitting in the swing vote position. I don't feel completely safe at all because Sandy could easily be pulling my chain, but if everything goes to plan, Kevin will go.
I am waiting to vote so I can talk to Mike and get him to switch from Zander to Kevin in case he already voted. Plus, you never know what else could change...